Have
you ever read a book that you couldn't put down but you couldn't
recommend? I kind of feel that way about Ottessa Moshfegh’s
Eileen.
It's not that I felt it was a waste of time (to obtain that miserable
feeling, read “The Girl on the Train”). Maybe it's closer to the
way I felt about “Gone Girl” – these people are all despicable
but I can't stop reading. But Eileen isn't despicable, just
depressing.
Eileen
Dunlop, 23 year old resident of a small coastal Massachusetts
town she calls X-ville, is planning to escape from it all – her
alcoholic father, her dead-end job at a correctional facility for
adolescent boys, her marginal existence – for a new life in New
York. And since she narrates from a remove of fifty years, we know
she made it. We even know as she begins the story – a week before
Christmas – that by Christmas Day she will be gone. And I was
certainly rooting for her. But as she piled on detail after detail
about her life – her father's abusive insults, her disgust with her
own body, her sad workplace crush on a prison guard– I couldn't
imagine how she would gain the strength to succeed. Every time I thought her self-esteem couldn't get any lower, it did.
But
then the glamorous and mysterious Rebecca comes to work at the
facility, and forms an instant bond with Eileen. Eileen sees her as
an escape route, and in an unexpected and shocking way she is. But by that time I
was exhausted. Did I really need to endure that much misery to get
to a semi-happy ending?
I
have to admire Moshfegh’s ability to make a character and story so
compelling that I couldn't stop reading. And amazingly I did come to
care about what happened to Eileen – as opposed to that stupid girl
on the train. But be warned – it's the most disturbing Christmas
story you'll ever read.